Day 12 - 2mg:

Last night was still rough, but a lot better than the night before. I forced myself not to nap yesterday so I would be more tired at night. Also, my doctor gave me some medicine to help with restless legs. I forget what it’s called but it’s a high blood pressure med. too tired right now to walk to another room and look at the bottle.

Anyway. It’s so weird. It comes in phases. I’ll feel fine. Then I’ll feel awful. If I don’t stick to my meal plan, I’ll feel REALLY awful. Going to finally try to go to the gym today, see if that helps my sleep.

As tired as I am. As worn out as I am. As shitty as I feel. I still haven’t broken my taper plan. And it’s been sitting in my bathroom, all of my suboxone. I’m determined to be a success story. I won’t fail. No matter what. I’m posting every day because I’m off work and some form of consistency is helping me feel productive. Also, months from now maybe this story will help someone else that is trying to get off.